Hey guys,
I missed you. I’m back at it again today and it feels good to be back on schedule. Though this week is still up in the air a bit as it’s my partner’s birthday and so many people want to take us out to celebrate. So lots of planning goes into that and lots to do and lots of extra time taken from my day to spend that time with everyone and my partner. I don’t regret it or dislike it in the least, he deserves it and it gives us some much-needed social interaction (besides each other). It does, however disrupt our regular schedule we’ve developed over the last few months.
So, to today’s topic. Why do I write? Why did I choose to be a writer? How did I know when I became a writer? How does anyone know they are a writer? Honestly this may be a vague answer, but it’s the best one I have. You just know. It’s an answer that might contradict what everyone else says or thinks, but it’s the only one that seems to feel completely right. It’s a word that when used to describe yourself, it seems to fit perfectly and it feels right, feels good. It feels like the word is the embodiment of you. Like no other word would ever describe you as well as that one.
It’s the feeling you get when you’re writing. Yes, no matter how terrible it is. That this is what you’re supposed to be doing. That writing, no matter how hard it gets (the good and all the bad that comes with it) is what you love to do, you have fun doing it and challenging yourself in it and learning about yourself. That’s how you know you’re a writer, when nothing else seems to fit quite as well.
Why do I write? Why did I start writing? Well, my reasons for writing now are very different than they were when I first started writing. When I started writing my first idea I just thought writing was cool and interesting and I had an idea so I wanted to write it. I wanted to write the types of books that I loved to read. But that’s changed. Now I don’t just write for the sake of writing an idea and fully forming it. I write because I must, because nothing else makes as much sense and fiction and ideas and the blank page. Because fictional people make more sense to me than real ones. Because fictional worlds are easier to wrap my head around than our world. I have to keep writing for my sanity, because it makes me happy and it makes me feel good. I write now because it’s important to me, it’s my favorite part of myself. When I don’t write or don’t have time to write I feel down and stressed an overwhelming amount of emotions and it becomes to much. Writing helps me sift through my emotions and control them. To let them spill out onto the page, becoming my character’s emotions. It gives me an outlet and it helps center me and my emotions.
In the simplest words, I write now because I feel I must. Like nothing else matters more than me getting my time to write what I love. And I’m very fortunate that I have a partner who understands. Who understands how important writing it to me and that I cannot give it up.
Writing comes naturally to me and I never run out of ideas to write, they keep flowing like water from an unfixed leaky facet. They may slow to a trickle, but they aren’t stopping any time soon. It’s not something I can stop doing. Though that’s not without lack of trying. I had to give up writing for more than a few months once and it nearly broke me. I’ll not tell the whole story here, but that was a very difficult time for me, forcing that part of myself into a drawer because I didn’t have time for it. Now I know I can’t go back to that so however little progress I make, even if it’s just an idea or a sentence, whether that be during burnout or the busiest time of my life. I know I cannot go back to not writing. It just makes me miserable. So that’s not a possibility. I would sooner write just one word every day then stop altogether.
So, if it feels like you should be a writer, like you should call yourself a writer then you are one. If you write and you enjoy it, then you’re a writer. If you face all the odd stacked against you yet still manage to sit in that chair and write something down then you’re a writer and that’s what you’re meant to do. Now don’t forget, people can often be meant to be or do more than one thing so don’t give up something else that is important to you just for writing. But don’t throw writing out if it feels good. If it feels good then it’s not a waste of time. No matter what anyone says.
Alright guys, thank you so much for being here today and for spending some of your limited time here with me. It’s very much appreciated! I hope you enjoyed this post. It’s very important to me. I think many people question what being a writer is or how you know if you are one. The answer is really very simple. If you want to be, if you think you are and you’re doing something about it and you enjoy it then you’re a writer. And don’t let anyone tell you you’re not. You decide, not them or anyone else. It’s completely up to you.
Okay, well I do have to go. But it was great spending time here with you guys. Please comment below. I want to hear form you! Tell me about why you write, what makes you want to write and keep writing? How did you start writing? I’m interested in your story and what you have to say too! I’m only human and a very curious one, if you feel like sharing. Lots of love! Happy reading and writing! Until next time guys, bye.
Celine Rose Marie